Blood Test results

I got my thyroglobulin blood test result.

And it's official:

NO CANCER!

I was worried about it, I must admit. Heck, I have a PHD in worry studies! But you know what? The more we go through situations, the more I realise that worrying does nothing. It does not make anything better, it does not make me have any control over what I am worrying about. All is does, is make me stressed about possible scenarios that didn't even happen yet, how silly is that?

Blah, I really need to work in not worrying.

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"

Matthew 6:25-27

I seriously love that verse. It's so true, worrying has no benefits whatsoever.

Everytime I worry, I am wasting energy. I really need to concentrate in distracting myself with good things when I start to worry.

What do you do when you start to worry?

I am following a whole heap of people. Will you follow me in my journey too?

The adventure has begun!

The weekend started on a high.

It was friday night and I was tired, we were running late home, so we got some fish and chips and headed to the farm. Got home, ignored the mess (big time!) and went to check the voice mail on the phone. Message one:

"Hi, this is lady from Australian Consulate. I am just ringing to let you know the doctors gave me the go ahead and I will be processing Roberta's residency on Monday and send it by courier on Monday. Have a good weekend"

ARE YOU FLIPPING SERIOUS?

All the mess did not bother me anymore. I started to scream because I was so happy! I did the happy dance. The kids looked at me funny. But I didn't care! God is truly faithful! We have encountered so may obstacles along the way to get to this point. We even looked into changing our flights. We spent many hours worrying about it, and all was in vain. He is faithful. He is ahead of us in this move, I have no doubts at all - so why did I even worry? We still have twenty one days spare! How cool is that? This is such a miracle in itself - if you have been reading my blog, you know all the hurdles we have been through! We're so happy, there is a huge weight off our shoulders. No more wondering about it, no more stress. God is so good. I can officially say now that I am an Australian Resident!

On another note, we moved out of the farm house this weekend.

Saturday morning was a mission. Jason got our garage sale organised and I stayed at home with the kiddies. It was raining and super cold outside. We had no couch to sit on, no TV, no computer because the phone had already been disconnected. I was trying to clean but I gave up because the kids were cutting paper and trying to entertain themselves. So we started to jump on the mattress and use it as a trampoline. It was fun. We did get bored, it was a long morning, but we survived.

Then we had a family farewell dinner for Jason.

On Sunday after church we went to see my sister and my spotty niece Georgia (the bubba has chicken pox, she is so cute all spotty, haha)

I cannot believe how fast this year is going by. My birthday is next saturday, I will be turning 29. Pretty scary. We have been so busy since deciding we were moving to Australia, no time to smell the flowers. I find that sometimes, we just have to do what we have to do. We're exhausted, busy - but it will all be worth it in the end. God has been ahead of us throughout the whole process and we're excited to see what he has in store for us.

continuing my list, this monday, this is what I am grateful for: 11. my God, who is faithful12. Jason's parents, who opened their doors for us, despite a very small house 13. warmth! it has been a cold week.14. Our friends, we have been busy trying to say goodbye to everyone15. work - yes, I am tired but God knows why I need to work until I go and he has given me this job!16. Wiggles dvds - Elijah loves them and when he starts singing in the car it really warms my heart.17. Wheat bags - them make Bella's tummy better.18. Allyah's sense of humour, she is starting to develop her own and she can be quite funny.19. the mess - means we're getting things done20. Coffee :)

Stream of Consciousness

Stream of Consciousness posts = I just write whatever comes to my mind, no thinking, no editing, just me and my brains! So excuse me if I ramble or what I am saying does not make sense.

It's a very cold and rainy thursday here in New Zealand and today I really struggled to get out of bed. My bed was so warm and the house was so cold. So I lit the fire and my problems were all gone, in no time we had a warm toasty house. I actually like winter, I just don't like being cold.

Last night we packed some more boxes. That was really the last thing I wanted to do, I was just so tired and American Idol was on, and I really wanted to watch it. But anyways, I had to get up and start because Jason was nagging me. So up I get up and start. And I started to get really discouraged by the mess - my friends, I must say, it's huge. So I packed my kitchen, my groceries, pout them into boxes while Jason sorted out his paper work and danced around to Americal Idol making me laugh. That boy annoys the heck out of me sometimes, but I do love him. He makes me laugh all the time (that is, when he is not, ahem, annoying me!). I will certainly miss him a lot when he goes to Aussie next week! We will be separated for three weeks, which I know is not much, but it is three weeks too long.

Have I mentioned that we (the kids and I) have a seven hours wait in Melbourne airport? Seriously, I am not joking. S E V E N H O U R S with three kids in an airport. Have any of you ever had to do anything like this? Picture this: Our flight leaves New Zealand at 8am (I think) which means we will need to be at the airport at six. Ok. Then we fly for three hours and then wait for SEVEN until our next flight. I said seven right? Yep. Three kids, plus luggage for four as I will have to check in again for our domestic flight, plus two booster carseats. Are you picturing this in your mind? Are you feeling awfully sorry for me? I would love tips and ideas to keep busy children entertained and to keep me sane. So please, if you have done anything like this, share, oh please!!! Share your tips with me.

Tonight is our last night at our house. It's not really looking like our house anymore. Our stuff is all gone. A new chapter of our lives is about to start and all I can say is: Bring it on!

That's all ♥

A time waster

Walk with Him Wednesday

I have been struggling with what I was going to write about. You see, it's "Walk with Him Wednesday" and I really wanted to write about something that I find important, but must confess, I am not good at it sometimes. Using my life as a ministry to others. Seriusly, it is a whole lot easier said than done. I think most people can relate when I say that. Every morning when I wake up, the intentions are good. So I get up, have my shower, get the kids up. From there on, it's rush time. By the time we leave the house, we are all flustered and grumpy. Not a good start. Drop the kids at the bus stop, Elijah at daycare and head to work. 'Concentrate now' The phone starts ringing and the word day starts. By the tenth phone call, I start to voice my frustrations. 'Some people should not own computers' (I work at a software development company, we get a lot of calls from people with software problems) By the twentieth phone call, maybe one or more clients heard my frustration in my tone of voice. My work colleagues just think it's normal, after all, we all have a whinge about frustrating phone calls or people who are not so computer savvy. So to them, I am one of the bunch. But when I think about it, what am I showing my work colleagues? I am probably not setting the right example of what Jesus would do if He was walking in my shoes. Ok, I know I am human, but I know better. But when people are rude to me, it's hard to turn the other cheek. When people start to backtab, sometimes it's hard not to give my two cents worth. We're all buried in a society where you need to be 'in' in order to fit. Don't get me wrong. I really do not to go out of my way to be 'in'. What I am saying is, sometimes we get caught up in a moment and when we realise, it's too late, you already criticised the boss or voiced your frustration out loud. I do want to be in, in HIS crowd. I don't really care if people think I am weird because I don't drink, or because I don't say anything when gossip is going around. But like I already mention in this blog, sometimes I fail miserably. People often judge christians, saying we are all hypocrites. The news is, we are! Everyday we are reminded how we can't measure up at all. And that's the beauty of christianity. If we were all perfect, we would not need Him at all. And His grace is given to us, everyday we fail, yet, He loves us, He forgives us, every single day. The challenge is to keep focus and pray. Pray that the Holy Spirit will show me ways of using my life to show Jesus to other. I don't want to fit in. I only want to fit in in His crowd.

An update on our big move and prayer requests

Oh boy it's getting close now.

Hubby leaves in a week to go to Australia - there is not turning back (not that we would turn back, but you know what I mean!) This weekend, we will move out of the farm house and move in to Jason's mum and dad. Jason will only be there for half week, but the kids and I stay there until the 21st June * if everything goes according to plan *.

Immigration is still stuck for me, but Jason rang them on Monday and the lady promised she would have it all done by the time we go, as long as the results of my blood tests come back fine. I have to say that I am feeling a bit anxious when it comes to those results. When you get cancer - it's scary! When you have surgery - it's awful. When you are given a great prognosis after surgery and treatment - it's wonderful! For some reason, since my last treatment, 2 years ago, I never had a thyroglobulin test done. That test will tell if there is still an active tumor. And that's the test I am waiting results on. If you have a spare thirty seconds in your day today, please say a little prayer for me.

Today I am going to pack our bags. I bought three big suitcases for $25, I am the queen of the bargains, I must say I was really happy with my find! So I am putting all our clothes in the suitcases so Jason can take the draws away to be sold in our garage sale. So from now on, we will be literally be living out of suitcases!

It seems like everything is finally coming together for us. God has been with us all along the way, with every difficulty, he provided a solution for us.

It's quite scary going to a new place where you don't know anyone. And moving to Australia was not an easy decision as we're leaving family and friends behind, but Jason and I both feel God has a lot more in store for us than just a job and a nice house and that is exciting!

This is a photo of Mount Gambier, South Australia, where we are heading to:


Now for the prayer requests:

1. Isabella is home sick from school today, hence I am at home from work too. She has been having extreme tummy aches, we ended up in hospital last night - we're pretty sure the water we are drinking is causing the pains, as Elijah also had the same a couple of weeks ago. I am glad we're moving, meanwhile we're drinking bottled water.

2. Jason's mum, Carolyn - she has been feeling weird lately, with her heart racing and really high blood pressure. She collapsed on Sunday but she did not tell me! She has been to the doctor and they are running tests on her, but today she is off work again as she is not feeling right, to be honest, I am worried about her - so please pray for Carol!

3. My immigration stuff and my blood test results.

1000 Gifts

I have been reading a lot lately and thinking a lot lately. I don't know why but I have been feeling God's presence with me all the time, and I am wondering "why me?".

Why me?

I am such a busy lady, I haven't been reading my Bible, I haven't been the greatest mum or wife, I have been wrapped up in my own little world lately, unaware of a lot of things and to be honest, just being plain selfish. I get home from work and I am tired, the kids are tired, we are all going through the motions of life, just living.

Why me Lord?

I don't deserve it at all. I feel so weak and so undeserving. Yet I can feel Him close, in ordinary moments. I feel His nudge, I hear his voice, and yet, I am not listening. My mind is too crowded with noise, I can't sit still, I can't concentrate, my mind wonders to a thousand different places and I start to worry.

Yet, He is persistent.

He is always there. Showing me things, talking to me through simpleness in the middle of my rush. The kids yell in the background and I feel impatient, I want to love them, I want to be a great mum to them, but I feel so helpless, so tired. I feel like hiding away from it all, in quietness, stillness, with no success.

Lord, please help me.

He shows me beauty, love, life. And I am so ungrateful. When my children are being loud, I should be thankful that they are healthy. They are God's gift to me and Jason, and God made them perfect. They are beautiful, full of life, they love me unconditionally just like He does.
My spirit is crushed because I fail and fail everyday, I let them down, I let my husband down, I let myself down but most of all, I let Him down. I can't see what is right in front of me.

But He is not giving up on me.

The beauty of God is that he takes us as we are. He is taking me, undeserving, selfish, impatient, tired - me. He is wrapping me in His arms telling me it's going to be okay, telling me to keep trying, telling me He is with me all the time.

And all is left is for me to keep pressing forward, failing, getting back up and trying again. Because through Him, I can.


Every Monday, I am posting TEN things I am grateful for. I am following her idea.

I am starting my list today. Will you join me?

1. Above all, God for choosing me and not giving up n me.
2. My husband for loving me everyday and putting up with me.
3. Allyah for being such a wonderful daughter, so intelligent and loving.
4. Isabella for being busy, loud, loving, caring, the dreamer, singer that she is.
5. Elijah my only son, my baby boy, loving, truck and motorbike lover.
6. My church for giving us a place place we call home
7. Family all my extended family that have been there for me during various situations in my life.
8. My parents for raising me to become who I am today.
9. The country I have lived for the last 8 years.
10. The roof over my head, because many people don't even have that.

I am truly blessed.